my hands are cold

my hands are cold


i notice that my circulation acts funny. i get cold and hot easily...my hands and feet get cold then i get cold, if i eat or drink anything hot i get hot...i need to take vitamins and cayenne supplements and i need to eat healthier. but i have no money and idont go food shopping much except when there is REALLY nothing in the fridge except for pickles and ketchup and jam and such...yuck!! i really was gonna do the vegetarian thing...but then i was like...but what about all the stuff i'd miss out on...fried clams... squid... scallops ... roast beef... chicken... pork fried rice... mmm and all the fatty stuff i eat at work... papa gino's that is... (www.papaginos.com/) mmm fatty steak and cheeses and pizza and fried dough...oh okay yeah sometimes i throw dough into the deep fryer when the boss isnt looking...oh well if they find that out i hope they fire me so i can colllect unemployment...hahahaha. my job gets boring... still on a quest to discover something new and interesting and entry-level.

i've been thiking over getting rid of a lot of stuff i got...just stuff that i dont use anymore...i dont have a credit card so i cant eBay stuff...debit cards dont count...at least not mine anyway...it wont work... and its too cold for yard sales...i need to come up with something fast.... perhaps i can seel stuff thru this blog...eh i dont know might be sketchy...i'll think of something...

i want to watch south park but its not on right now and i donthave the DVDs.... i want to listen to DR/GLU but im thinking about him too much and im trying to wean myself out of that thought pattern... hey did you guys know dave sherman is a cool guy? he's dave's manager. he's trying to get How Humans Rx to be released... i'm rootin for that guy... he's coping AND working...if i was in his shoes i'd probably fall to pieces for weeks and then MAYBE get the strength to fight for it...eh...maybe i actually would do what he's doing...i mean...he's got the power of god and dave in heaven behind him... everybody pray... everyone involved in that whole thing needs the energy...grief expends alot of personal emotional spiritual energy and they all need a little bit of goodness donated to them :)

anyhoo i dont like my job i dont like a lot of things and i find myself trying to get undepressed and its succeeding in small portions but i stil lhave no energy to do anything and i feel so separate from the world...even though im friendly and everybody talks to me... i wonder why i feel like that.

i have to do my homework. i also have to change the channel cuz that damn informercial is driving me nuts!!!

*15 seconds later...* dammit nothing on TV.

i still dont want a boyfriend...and i have a feeling my ex is messing with my head OR i could be just blowing things out of proportion again... but then that would be why he is still my ex... hahaha.

i cant figure out why the font size on my screen is so damn huge. i configured internet explorer but it still looks crappy. grrr.

i need to take pics of me and my new haircut. thats one thing that made me happy. i got it cut on monday. i feel pretty. makes me feel 1 etter. but i know it dont do nothin for my insides :)

ttyl ~hilabeans

miss u david. i'm still istening to your music. its been 8 days since you passed, and it still feels just as painful. 8 days...


Currently listening:
Life in the So-Called Space Age
By God Lives Underwater
Release date: By 24 March, 1998